A moment, a love, a dream, a laugh, a kiss, a cry, our rights, our wrongs.

Blogging consistently has never been one of my strong points. I guess it's because I never really know how to put what I'm feeling into words simple enough to understand.

A lot of things have been going on within me, and yet nothing has really been going on. I haven't done anything worth mentioning. I haven't gone places or achieved anything. I've been writing. I guess that's enough? Creating a new world and new characters; developing a story that'll hopefully be consumed by fans worldwide. That's what I keep telling myself, anyway.

It's incredible, seeing how far my friends from middle and elementary school have come. How their lives have changed, and what they've made of themselves. What they're making of themselves. And even my friends from high school. We're all growing up; we're all living our lives in this great big world. It's strange. The only memories I have of these people are so sheltered; so protected. They're all so solid. But I know that things have changed since then. They aren't the only ones that have changed.

More often than not, I find myself wondering what happened to me. I find myself jealous of all of the incredible adventures that my old school friends have embarked on. They're all kickstarting their careers. They're all making names for themselves. They're all enjoying college life like every young adult like myself should be.

I honestly can't help but think that I haven't done anything. That I'm not doing anything. That my prime years are wasting away, and I'm not making the memories and experiencing the things that I should be doing. Is it because I'm still living at home? Because I don't have a job? Because I'm going to a junior college? Is it because I'm not as assertive as I should be? Because I'm not straightforward and I don't volunteer for things and I don't stand up for things and I don't do anything that might even remotely help me stand out? Is all of this my fault?

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to do right now. And that scares me more than it should.